so yea im kinda bored right now, i have nothing to do really, and i havent written on this in a while. last night was pretty fun, went to a corn maze with some peeps from thursdays. it was kinda cold though. other then that not that much went on yest. although i did want to choke people during the beginning of the day. but after lunch i was kinda like whatever this sux give me my paycheck and let me go home. hopefuly the rest of this weekend wont suck
justice system fails us again
so i just got the call from my mom. the jury found that scumbag not guilt. im so pissed right now. i cant believe that they are that stupid. im at a loss for words right now. this sux, not only for me but mostly for my sister. there has got to b some way to appeal the ruling cause its bull.
long, stress filled week
so the trial that my family has had to deal with since may actually happened this week. suffice it to say its been hell. the guys lawyer was a total a-hole, well i guess if u r an a-hole u would probably pick one to b your lawyer. i testified on wednesday. the guy got me confused for a minute and thats all he need to jump on me. luckily i caught the mistake and got back on track. but i still felt like a complete moron, in fact i still kinda do. the defendant testified yesterday which was thursday for u playing the home game, i couldnt go though in case they needed to call me back in to answer questions about something he said. i wouldnt have gone anyway. so here i am at my computer stressing out and worrying cause the jury has been deliberating since 10:30 this morning. its almost 5 now!! grrr so yea ive had a pretty crappy day, full of stress and worry. please continue to pray for my family and i. thanx
stressin
so yea im kinda stressin right now, the whole family thing thats been goin on just got even more screwed up. bascally i have to testify against a former member of my family, well i was supposed to go to rochester today to talk to the da. well i got up there and called my mom cause she and my sister were supposed to b there as well because they need to testify also, so i open my phone and notice that my mom had texted me. the text message said that i didnt need to go to the da!!! and i was in the fricken parking garage!!! so that kinda pissed me off. then she tells me that the person im going to testify against, his lawyer recently left the court room to go the hospital, so there for they might have to push pack the court date again!!!! this fricken thing has already been pushed back once before! grrrrrrrr this scumbag just need to plead guilty and let us put this crap behind us. please pray for me and my family.
My girlfriend is finally home!!!!!
so my girlfriend Brittany has been gone for about 3 weeks now. leaving me alone and saddened, cause i couldn’t talk to her that whole time. she left on the 12th of july on a trip with a group called people to people, a student representative program. she went on a trip to Fiji, New Zealand, and Australia. the only message i received from her was an email saying that she was no longer in Fiji and on her way to New Zealand. she fiiiiiinally comes home tonight at around 10 i think. but it still sux cause i wont b able to talk to her till tomorrow. by the time she gets home it would b like 1 in the morning. so im really glad that shes coming back and i cant wait till this weekend so hopefully i can go and c her.
worry, me…nooooooo
if u know me very well at all u could probably tell that i am a worrier, i let bad things get to me very easily. there has been somethings going on in my family that definitely need my attention and i worry about that, also my car is kind of a piece of crap, kind of…ha. it seems i cant go a single month without something going wrong or needing fixing. and it seems like everytime something goes wrong i dont have that much money in the bank. then there is my personal struggles with habitual sins. if i get worried about something i stress, and i stress a loooot. i think i get it from my mom. ask my girlfriend Brittany what i get like when i get stressed. not pleasant. and would u like to know who i blame for the problems and crap that i go through at anygiven moment? myself?, it is my car and i should be saving for a new one, and i do order things on line that i dont necessarily need. whats happening in my family is out of my controll. and the sin, well thats been there for a looooong time. but do i blame myself or in the case of the family problem do i trust and have faith that it will all work out and everything will be ok? no i go straight to blaming God. I blame Him for letting my car break down yet again, annnnd not having the money to fix it. I blame Him for not delivering me from this sin yet. i dont blame God for whats happening now in my family but sometimes i doubt that everything will work out. ooooo there is another thing i doubt that God is even listening to me or even trying to help me with whatever im going through. i know that every Chirstian is like this at periods of there life, and its human in general to blame others for what we ourselves are really to blame for. questions and doubts are all good things, as Rob Bell said, im paraphrasing here, but if we have no questions or doubts what so ever its like we think we know everything, and we dont. whenever i get stressed out or worried about something, and i finally come to my senses i realize that i dont have all the answers. and that my relationship with Christ isnt always about how i feel or dont feel, its about just purely having faith that He is in ultimate control of whats going on in this world. and He gave people free will for a reason, to make good decisions about sin and temptation and not to fall to them, or to fall. its my choice to sin, He lets me, i dont always understand why but i dont need to. but what i do need to know is the amazing love that He has for me, and the endless grace and forgiveness He gives freely.
You are my hiding place; you will protect me from trouble and surround me with songs of deliverance. (Psalm 32:7-8)
my first blog
so this is my new bog, i really dont know what im goin to right on this, but i figured it would b fun. that and two of my good friends have one, thanx anthony and justin. so yea, this should b an interesting venture for me, and for those of u who have to suffer through reading them, hahahah sorry.
